I think one of the hardest parts about plans being cancelled is the disappointment. Not mine, but His. Life is busy, especially for him and I know he gets upset when other sides of his life interfere with the side that I am involved in. I don't like it either... who would?
It's been a few weeks since I've seen Master, it's been since we went to visit another M/s couple out of town. Of course we talk every day, and we've even talked on the phone a few times..but that doesn't help the need to see him face to face.
I kinda get stuck on the fence sometimes, I get stuck between wishing that I was a bigger part of his life, and being happy with what I have and not wanting more.
I think the hardest part for me on days like today is the reminder that eventually, one day, this will have to end.
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