Last night a pixie fell in my lap and I ended up playing with her. Thankfully Master was working 3rd shift.
It was my step daughter's bday and I was invited by her and her mom to go out with them. Somehow I thought that I would be coming home last night. lol.. I always plan to come home by midnight but it never really seems to work that way. I rode with S (the mom) to K's (my step daughter) house. K had a friend of hers there, she was an adorable little pixie. She looked like a little tinkerbell. I didn't feel a strong attraction to her right away, she's only 22 or 23, plus she was like a sister to K. S actually almost adopted tinkerbell 10 years ago.
We started the night out early, it seems we're not used to the time change yet. We left K's house at 8 I think. The first bar that we walked into was a country bar, very backwoods. Everyone was in either camo or blaze orange. The 4 of us were the only ones dressed up and in heels. There were more than a couple stares. We bar hopped our way to a city about 15 miles away from K's house.
At some point I ended up telling her that I'm an owned slave. Tinkerbell had been talking about an ex boyfriend of hers and how he liked her to put heels on and step on his cock or balls. Apparently she really enjoyed it but also enjoys the bottom role as well. I explained my slavery to her and what it meant, from that point on she was by my side for the rest of the night.
Once we got to town there's a square that has tons of bars all within walking distance, so the truck got parked and we walked for the rest of the night. I was starting to really like Tinkerbell, I really wanted to kiss her. I told Master that I really wanted to kiss a girl, he asked me who so I told him about Tinkerbell. He wanted a pic of her, so I asked her if she minded (I told her who it was for). I sent a pic of her to him and he told me that I have good taste. I wasn't very sure if she was into me or not though, I knew she liked chicks so that wasn't an issue. Master told me to flirt, to test it out. Next thing I knew there was a bartender walking around with jello shots and Tinkerbell wanted to take one from between my tits. After getting permission we each got a shot and one promptly went into my cleavage. The bartender topped the shot off with cool whip and Tink took it. The shot had tipped a bit so I ended up with cool whip on my chest which she made sure to lick off. At that point I asked Master if it would be ok if I kissed her, after he said yes I decided just to be blunt and tell her what I wanted. We spent the rest of the night making out, dancing and having tons of fun.
At one of the bars I saw a woman wearing a collar and asked her if it was just part of her fashion or if it meant something more. It turned out that she was a Domme. We talked for a little bit, she said that she just really likes wearing collars but she's not owned. I told her that I was and showed her my chain and lock. When it was time to go I told her goodbye and she kissed me on the cheek. I told her that it had been great to meet her, it's not very often that I see people in the lifestyle outside of the munch. She gave me her fet name to look her up with, I had showed her a picture of one of the whips that Master made and she wanted me to message her. I called her "Miss". I'm not really sure why, it just kinda came out and it felt right.
Most of the night was a blur, going from one place to another...eventually K left with her boyfriend and it was just S, Tinkerbell and myself. Once we got back to the truck Tinkerbell asked if I would sit in the back seat with her. Right away she was whispering in my ear, asking, begging me to tell her what to do. Lol...I didn't know what to do! I asked Master and he told me to have fun with her, told me to have her take her panties off and give them to me.
I remember turning and telling her "Fine, you want me to tell you what to do?"
"yes, yes, please" she whispered into my ear
"I want your panties in my hands now"
She hesitated so I pushed her away onto the other side of the truck. She started asking me what was wrong and trying to get closer to me again. I put my hand out and and waited. Soon her pants were off and she realized that she wasn't wearing any.
Master told me to have fun and play with her, He said "play with ur new toy, pet" I reminded her that I'm owned so I may get orders from my Master while we were having fun. She said that was fine. I asked him if I could try to get her off, which of course he was fine with.
I started teasing her legs and getting close but not quite close enough to her pussy, I flicked her clit a few times then started to rub it. She laid back on the seat as I started to fuck her with my fingers. She started moaning loudly so I covered her mouth and told her "Shut up you little fuckhole". It helped quiet her for a little while, but soon she was moaning louder again (we're still in the back seat of the truck btw, thankfully S had the radio on pretty loud). I slapped the inside of her thigh and started rubbing her clit with my thumb as I was finger fucking her. I think she got close but she was making too much noise so I stopped abruptly and pulled my fingers out quickly leaving her dry humping the air. She asked me why I stopped and I told her "because you can't keep your mouth shut, your're lucky you didn't have panties on, if you did, you would be riding the rest of the way with them shoved in your mouth"
She got pouty so I told her "Don't be petulant, you can wait.. now put your fucking pants back on." She kept asking me for more, begging me to touch her again. I tweaked her nipple and told her she couldn't talk until we got to K's house.
Once we got to K's house we got out of the truck and followed S in. I was walking behind Tinkerbell and saw that she had put her pants on backwards so the fly was in the back. I laughed until I couldn't hardly breath. K was already there talking with her boyfriend and one of his friends in the basement. S went down as well.
Master told me to grab her hair and kiss her.
I looked at Tinkerbell, told her "I have orders" grabbed her hair and forced her to kiss me.
I pushed her away from me and told her to go wait for me in the garage, I was going to spank her ass.
I took my time going out there... went upstairs, fixed my hair, put my jacket away, took my shoes off. I was making her wait.
I walked into the garage and she had her pants down to mid thigh and was bent over, hands on the loveseat cushion. I walked up to her and started caressing her ass, rubbing it, tapping it lightly. I gave it a few good smacks, trying to judge the pain. I sat down on the loveseat and she straddled me. I started playing with her pussy again. I would smack her ass once in a while, but I really wanted her to come. Somehow I decided she was taking too long. So I told her she had 3 minutes to come before I stop. I played with her pussy more intensely and started to count down.
"2 and a half minutes, you know... everybody in the house probably knows what we're doing out here"
"2 minutes, they know I'm using you as a fuckhole"
"1 and a half minutes, I wish my Master were here to watch you, he would enjoy it"
"1 minute, you don't have very much time left"
"30 seconds, come on you little fuckhole, you had better cum"
"29, 28, 27,26, 25...why don't you just fucking cum already... 24,23, 22, 21, 20, 19, 18, 17, 16, 15" I started slapping her thighs and ass. "14, 13, 12, 11, I'm stopping in 10 seconds whether you cum or not, but if you want me to keep using you like a fuckhole, you. will. cum. 9, 8, 7, 6, 5" she came around my fingers and squirted all over my lap.
I checked my phone and saw this message: "put her over your lap and spank that lil bottom like I spank yours...but nicer. lol" my reply was "I'm not being nice, she's a masochist".
I told Tinkerbell that Master had sent me another order and told her to get across my lap. I caressed and rubbed her ass and started spanking her lightly. I told her what yellow and red meant, and made her repeat it to me... She was getting so aroused. I started hitting her ass harder, and hitting her thighs. I grabbed her hair and pulled her head up with one hand and kept spanking with the other. I told her "you know, there are people that can cum from pain" she was moaning and yelping. She started to beg me to play with her pussy again. I started playing with her pussy again and continued to spank her. I got her off 3 more times, squirting with each orgasm. My thighs and stomach were drenched with her fluids.
I grabbed her hair and pulled her up and moved her so she was straddling me again. I put my fingers near her pussy and told her spanking her had hurt my hand so she was to fuck my fingers, I was done with doing all the work.
She started rubbing her clit against my fingers and soon pushed herself onto them. She started fucking my fingers.
I said "you really are a fuckhole, I get you off 4 times and you still haven't had enough."
After a bit I told her that she had 3 minutes again. I counted down like I did the first time. When I got to 15 she was frantically fucking my hand. I had pushed 4 fingers into her. At ten seconds I said "Listen to me toy, I want you to cum, I want you to squirt all over my fucking hand and lap, at 0 I am pulling my hand away whether you're done or not." She came an squirted all over me at "3". She collapsed on top of me. We sat there for a few minutes, until she started shivering, so I eased her off of my lap and helped her inside. I checked for any messages on my phone, there were none, I gave Master an update and told him I needed to cuddle her. We laid blankets down on the floor and I held her, we talked about what had happened, I asked if she was ok with everything, told her why I called her a fuckhole, why I treated her like I did. She understood and said she enjoyed every minute of it.
I fell asleep with Tinkerbell in my arms.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Taking a break- Update
So I guess my break is over, I've decided that I'm just going to keep doing the same thing that I have been...keeping on the outskirts, getting to know a few people very well instead of a ton of people hardly at all. I don't mean that to sound judgmental, it's just how I want it to be, it's what I'm comfortable with.
I'm also going to stop worrying about possibly offending people with something that I post.
I'm also going to stop worrying about possibly offending people with something that I post.
Watching the news
I usually try not to watch the news. It gets too annoying and I really would prefer to be ignorant of what's wrong with the world, or even just Wisconsin.
Last night I watched something about college, and how kids that are born this year will end up having to pay at least 125,000 to attend 4 years in Madison.
Really?? 125,000?? How can it be so expensive here, but in countries like Finland, it's free? Why can't something like that work here? I really don't know how it works in Finland, maybe it's included in taxes. Would that be so bad? We're going to have to pay the money eventually for our kids to go to college, would it be so bad to have to pay taxes that go towards schools so that we don't end up having to pay so much out of pocket at once..or acquire huge amounts of debt before the kids even start working?
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Taking a break from the community
I decided a few days ago to take a break from fet. My profile is saved so I can go back to it later, but I'm not sure when that might be. I'm not very sure that I will be going to any munches for a while either. I think I just really need to take some time to myself and figure out where I stand, where I want to stand in the kink community.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Successful Therapy
Finally!! Our schedules coincided and we were able to have therapy today. There was a lot of whipping, smacking, flogging, whimpering, tears, yelps and even a "yellow".
The new harness ball gag was used today. That thing freaks the hell out of me for a few reasons... first in my mind it's being reduced to a thing...taking away my humanity, second.. I can't give a color. Even though I am His slave, we still use the color system and he takes them as suggestions that he may or may not take under consideration.. He has taken me past yellow in the past. Lastly...to my great embarrassment...I drool profusely with it on. The ball is like a large whiffle ball, it's a bit too big for my mouth, but can be positioned so it doesn't hurt my jaw. No matter what though, I drool. A lot. And it's humiliating.
Today he used a new toy that brought me to tears as quick, if not quicker, than a wooden paddle. I'll have to try to post a pic of it. It's like the handle of the whips he makes, it tapers down but no whip tip. It's only about a foot (maybe longer?) long. It is VERY stingy, a very hard, deep stingy.
I was nervous driving there. The drive seemed to take forever, and then all of the sudden I was there. I couldn't stop a huge grin as I was walking to his house. I go through the garage to the stairs that take me into the basement. I go straight to the bathroom to get ready. I already had my belly chain, leather collar with tag, wrist cuffs and my black thigh high stockings on...I put the ankle cuffs on and the purple fox ears I recently got.
I go to the bottom of the stairs, take the slaver's kiss (Gorean slave position) hands outstretched with key to the new heart lock for the belly chain in them. I can hear when Master comes down the stairs, I heard him pause...I had to try very hard not to fidget. Suddenly I hear him go back upstairs! I almost sat up to see where he was going.. I know I whimpered. Of course he came back, came down to me, inspected me, took the key and lightly touched my back (finally!!). I jumped... lol...I was waiting for it and it still startled me a bit. He spent the next few minutes touching me; my arms, my thighs, my ass, felt how wet I was...lightly smacked my ass a few times, along with my inner thighs. He pulled at the belly chain I was wearing (chainmail he made for me), and pulled at the back of my collar.
Eventually he told me to sit up and I could finally look into his eyes. We sat there for a minute or two, smiling at each other...He told me my ears were "cute", asked me about my nipple piercings (got them done in March), making sure that there were no issues. Soon he led me upstairs. He sat on the couch as I sat at his feet. We cuddled like that for a bit, until he took my hair in his hand and led me to the ottoman.
I think he started out with a paddle, which always hurt me the quickest, then switched to something that was even more stingy! It was different though, it was a deep, heavy sting. Usually when he uses toys on my back they don't hurt as much...not this one...it only hurt slightly less than it did on my ass. I soon had tears in my eyes and was holding back more. My face was buried in my arms. He would pause briefly when I showed signs of a hit that pushed me, I soon cried "yellow". Shortly after he moved onto floggers and worked over my back, ass and thighs.
My memory fogs a lot after that beating, I had a very difficult time focusing on anything so I'm sure I'll get the order of things wrong and will leave a few things out....but...
After he stopped, I know I was making horrible sniffling noises, because he asked if I would like to blow my nose..which I then had to crawl to throw the tissue away. When I came back, he was still standing, watching me, and I crawled to him, resting the side of my head against his leg.
At one time he had rope around my upper arms and tied them together...which I loved. There was lots of teasing, teasing with is fingers, with his cock. Sometimes he would let me get away with pushing myself against his cock of fingers..sometimes I would get lucky and they would go inside of me...lol...rather I was lucky he would position himself just right. A few times when I would try to push against him he would shove me away..back against the ottoman. I almost thought he was going to smack my ass for it a couple times. lol
I'm not sure where in the timeline it was... but at one point we went into the garage and sat while he had a cigarette. I sat next to him, cuddling. When he was done he stood up in front of me and put his cock to my mouth. I happily began to suck it. He pulled it out and asked me if it tastes like "good girl pussy". I told him yes and tried to take his cock back into my mouth. He pulled away and said "what does it taste like?" I said "good girl" and tried again to reach his cock...again he pulled away. "good girl what?" he asked. Finally I said "good girl pussy" (I have issues with saying words like "cock" and "pussy" out loud and actually very rarely do). I was rewarded with his cock in my mouth.
We tried the new insertable that a friend of mine made. It's a bit too long though and feels like it's going to fall out. I can walk and crawl with it in, but as soon as I knelt with my legs open it dropped out. I was so wet it didn't have a chance. lol
Master left the room and came back with the harness ball gag. Told me to open my mouth, which I reluctantly did. I immediately felt a bit panicky, intimidated, nervous, aroused, He had his toys on the couch and told me to pick one for him to use on me. There was a flogger, the scorpion (single tail with leather strip for a tip) and the new beater. I almost grabbed the beater...not sure why...but ended up picking the Scorpion. Looking back, I know that Master loves flogging, but I also knew that the whip would hurt more, would get more reactions from me..more whimpers, gasps, and yelps. I also knew that the whip would make me more desperate for him.
We went down stairs and he hooked my cuffs to the hook in the ceiling beam, the other hook had a rope down and wrapped around my thigh holding my leg up. He used the whip on me..on my ass, legs, back, stomach...I lost track of where, just knew the pain. Once in a while he would tease me horribly (which I have to admit that I loved every second of) and go back to whipping. Each time he would remark about how wet I was. He asked me once, after he paused to see if I had any tears yet, if I wanted him to whip me more. I felt myself nodding yes. After a bit he paused again removed the ball gag, commenting on how much I had drooled...he commented about trying to decide if he should whip me more or fuck me, looked at me questioningly. I asked him to fuck me. He said "no, I think I need to whip you more"...and I suddenly heard myself say "Please fuck me Master, Please, Please Master...Please fuck me".
The new harness ball gag was used today. That thing freaks the hell out of me for a few reasons... first in my mind it's being reduced to a thing...taking away my humanity, second.. I can't give a color. Even though I am His slave, we still use the color system and he takes them as suggestions that he may or may not take under consideration.. He has taken me past yellow in the past. Lastly...to my great embarrassment...I drool profusely with it on. The ball is like a large whiffle ball, it's a bit too big for my mouth, but can be positioned so it doesn't hurt my jaw. No matter what though, I drool. A lot. And it's humiliating.
Today he used a new toy that brought me to tears as quick, if not quicker, than a wooden paddle. I'll have to try to post a pic of it. It's like the handle of the whips he makes, it tapers down but no whip tip. It's only about a foot (maybe longer?) long. It is VERY stingy, a very hard, deep stingy.
I was nervous driving there. The drive seemed to take forever, and then all of the sudden I was there. I couldn't stop a huge grin as I was walking to his house. I go through the garage to the stairs that take me into the basement. I go straight to the bathroom to get ready. I already had my belly chain, leather collar with tag, wrist cuffs and my black thigh high stockings on...I put the ankle cuffs on and the purple fox ears I recently got.
I go to the bottom of the stairs, take the slaver's kiss (Gorean slave position) hands outstretched with key to the new heart lock for the belly chain in them. I can hear when Master comes down the stairs, I heard him pause...I had to try very hard not to fidget. Suddenly I hear him go back upstairs! I almost sat up to see where he was going.. I know I whimpered. Of course he came back, came down to me, inspected me, took the key and lightly touched my back (finally!!). I jumped... lol...I was waiting for it and it still startled me a bit. He spent the next few minutes touching me; my arms, my thighs, my ass, felt how wet I was...lightly smacked my ass a few times, along with my inner thighs. He pulled at the belly chain I was wearing (chainmail he made for me), and pulled at the back of my collar.
Eventually he told me to sit up and I could finally look into his eyes. We sat there for a minute or two, smiling at each other...He told me my ears were "cute", asked me about my nipple piercings (got them done in March), making sure that there were no issues. Soon he led me upstairs. He sat on the couch as I sat at his feet. We cuddled like that for a bit, until he took my hair in his hand and led me to the ottoman.
I think he started out with a paddle, which always hurt me the quickest, then switched to something that was even more stingy! It was different though, it was a deep, heavy sting. Usually when he uses toys on my back they don't hurt as much...not this one...it only hurt slightly less than it did on my ass. I soon had tears in my eyes and was holding back more. My face was buried in my arms. He would pause briefly when I showed signs of a hit that pushed me, I soon cried "yellow". Shortly after he moved onto floggers and worked over my back, ass and thighs.
My memory fogs a lot after that beating, I had a very difficult time focusing on anything so I'm sure I'll get the order of things wrong and will leave a few things out....but...
After he stopped, I know I was making horrible sniffling noises, because he asked if I would like to blow my nose..which I then had to crawl to throw the tissue away. When I came back, he was still standing, watching me, and I crawled to him, resting the side of my head against his leg.
At one time he had rope around my upper arms and tied them together...which I loved. There was lots of teasing, teasing with is fingers, with his cock. Sometimes he would let me get away with pushing myself against his cock of fingers..sometimes I would get lucky and they would go inside of me...lol...rather I was lucky he would position himself just right. A few times when I would try to push against him he would shove me away..back against the ottoman. I almost thought he was going to smack my ass for it a couple times. lol
I'm not sure where in the timeline it was... but at one point we went into the garage and sat while he had a cigarette. I sat next to him, cuddling. When he was done he stood up in front of me and put his cock to my mouth. I happily began to suck it. He pulled it out and asked me if it tastes like "good girl pussy". I told him yes and tried to take his cock back into my mouth. He pulled away and said "what does it taste like?" I said "good girl" and tried again to reach his cock...again he pulled away. "good girl what?" he asked. Finally I said "good girl pussy" (I have issues with saying words like "cock" and "pussy" out loud and actually very rarely do). I was rewarded with his cock in my mouth.
We tried the new insertable that a friend of mine made. It's a bit too long though and feels like it's going to fall out. I can walk and crawl with it in, but as soon as I knelt with my legs open it dropped out. I was so wet it didn't have a chance. lol
Master left the room and came back with the harness ball gag. Told me to open my mouth, which I reluctantly did. I immediately felt a bit panicky, intimidated, nervous, aroused, He had his toys on the couch and told me to pick one for him to use on me. There was a flogger, the scorpion (single tail with leather strip for a tip) and the new beater. I almost grabbed the beater...not sure why...but ended up picking the Scorpion. Looking back, I know that Master loves flogging, but I also knew that the whip would hurt more, would get more reactions from me..more whimpers, gasps, and yelps. I also knew that the whip would make me more desperate for him.
We went down stairs and he hooked my cuffs to the hook in the ceiling beam, the other hook had a rope down and wrapped around my thigh holding my leg up. He used the whip on me..on my ass, legs, back, stomach...I lost track of where, just knew the pain. Once in a while he would tease me horribly (which I have to admit that I loved every second of) and go back to whipping. Each time he would remark about how wet I was. He asked me once, after he paused to see if I had any tears yet, if I wanted him to whip me more. I felt myself nodding yes. After a bit he paused again removed the ball gag, commenting on how much I had drooled...he commented about trying to decide if he should whip me more or fuck me, looked at me questioningly. I asked him to fuck me. He said "no, I think I need to whip you more"...and I suddenly heard myself say "Please fuck me Master, Please, Please Master...Please fuck me".
Friday, November 9, 2012
Going back to the bare bones
I've been working on training myself to cum on command. I believe that it has been working, but it has been slow goings. Along with using the command, I have changed my methods.
I used to only play one way, one position, same method every time. I would use a vibe sometimes, but every time I would focus on the end result without thinking about how I was essentially training myself to only be able to cum one way.
So now, I have eliminated using vibrations. I use my vibe sometimes, but only as an insertable, I don't turn it on, and when I use it that's all I focus on until I get to a plateau, then I will throw in a bit of clit stimulation. I have also tried sitting positions, laying on my stomach and even straddling a pillow while using an insertable.
I'm not rushing it though, I dont' really play when the kids are home since they are in the room with me. I wait until the weekends when they are gone and do a different method or technique once a weekend.
I think it has been working very well.
Today Master told me to play roughly with my nipples and while I was stretching and twisting them with the piercings I got incredibly aroused (more than nipple attention usually get me) and needed to have something inside of me. I asked if I could use my vibe (left off) and he said "yes, fill My pussy" (wich btw... I LOVE when he calls it His). I used only the vibe to start and got to the point where I was so close to an orgasm, I just couldn't quite get get over the edge. As I was still using the vibe I started playing with my clit and was able to cum in maybe a minute or two. Up until recently it would take about 80% clit stimulation for me to cum. Today it took 3%. I would call that progress.
I used to only play one way, one position, same method every time. I would use a vibe sometimes, but every time I would focus on the end result without thinking about how I was essentially training myself to only be able to cum one way.
So now, I have eliminated using vibrations. I use my vibe sometimes, but only as an insertable, I don't turn it on, and when I use it that's all I focus on until I get to a plateau, then I will throw in a bit of clit stimulation. I have also tried sitting positions, laying on my stomach and even straddling a pillow while using an insertable.
I'm not rushing it though, I dont' really play when the kids are home since they are in the room with me. I wait until the weekends when they are gone and do a different method or technique once a weekend.
I think it has been working very well.
Today Master told me to play roughly with my nipples and while I was stretching and twisting them with the piercings I got incredibly aroused (more than nipple attention usually get me) and needed to have something inside of me. I asked if I could use my vibe (left off) and he said "yes, fill My pussy" (wich btw... I LOVE when he calls it His). I used only the vibe to start and got to the point where I was so close to an orgasm, I just couldn't quite get get over the edge. As I was still using the vibe I started playing with my clit and was able to cum in maybe a minute or two. Up until recently it would take about 80% clit stimulation for me to cum. Today it took 3%. I would call that progress.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Beetlejuice! Beetlejuice! Beetlejuice!
Yes...right now I would rather invoke the chaotic wrath of a zombified Michael Keaton than think about what I am missing out on this morning. I guess you could say that Master and I are in a really bad run of canceled plans. Aside from the group therapy we had almost a month (wow, has it been that long?) ago, it's probably been close to two months since I've had one on one therapy with him.
A couple of weeks ago when he was working third shift I drove over to meet him before work. Back when my ex was taking the kids on a regular basis I would do that pretty often, now that my ex is only taking them 2.3 days a week, it's not so possible. Anyways...I met him in a parking lot that's on his way into town, I always wear a skirt when I meet him, but that night I wanted to dress nice...dress up. I wore a black, short (I would consider it to be mini), snug skirt (same one I wore to the last munch) and an off white, lace tube top with two rows of wide ruffles at the top.
We taked for a while, and eventually he told me "I need to touch you", so I laid down with my head on his leg. We were quiet; he pet my hair, touched my face, I closed my eyes and soaked it in. I love moments like that. He asked about my piercings (I have both nipples pierced, right one is fully healed, left one is a bit touchy yet), took a look at them, poked them while saying "beep"...which made me laugh. He laughed, but because he knew that even those silly little pokes was enough to start to arouse me.
Time always moves too fast during times like that. It's like we enter a time warp ("It's astounding, time is fleeting..."). Someone decides "Hey! You're enjoying yourselves too much...time needs to move faster for you". Really...whoever makes that decision...I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. If you are looking for ransom, I can tell you I don't have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills; skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. If you stop making time move faster, that'll be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you. But if you don't, I will look for you, I will find you, and I wilI kick you in the nuts.
Hmm... well I feel a bit better now. I guess that means it's time to take advantage of the fact that I still have a sitter this morning and start on some homework. Have a good day!
A couple of weeks ago when he was working third shift I drove over to meet him before work. Back when my ex was taking the kids on a regular basis I would do that pretty often, now that my ex is only taking them 2.3 days a week, it's not so possible. Anyways...I met him in a parking lot that's on his way into town, I always wear a skirt when I meet him, but that night I wanted to dress nice...dress up. I wore a black, short (I would consider it to be mini), snug skirt (same one I wore to the last munch) and an off white, lace tube top with two rows of wide ruffles at the top.
We taked for a while, and eventually he told me "I need to touch you", so I laid down with my head on his leg. We were quiet; he pet my hair, touched my face, I closed my eyes and soaked it in. I love moments like that. He asked about my piercings (I have both nipples pierced, right one is fully healed, left one is a bit touchy yet), took a look at them, poked them while saying "beep"...which made me laugh. He laughed, but because he knew that even those silly little pokes was enough to start to arouse me.
Time always moves too fast during times like that. It's like we enter a time warp ("It's astounding, time is fleeting..."). Someone decides "Hey! You're enjoying yourselves too much...time needs to move faster for you". Really...whoever makes that decision...I don't know who you are. I don't know what you want. If you are looking for ransom, I can tell you I don't have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills; skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. If you stop making time move faster, that'll be the end of it. I will not look for you, I will not pursue you. But if you don't, I will look for you, I will find you, and I wilI kick you in the nuts.
Hmm... well I feel a bit better now. I guess that means it's time to take advantage of the fact that I still have a sitter this morning and start on some homework. Have a good day!
Monday, November 5, 2012
Today needs a reset
This morning started out really rough, I really felt like everyone should just go back to bed and restart the day.
I was on the phone with HP and my school for almost an hour.. of course the majority of the time was on hold. I guess we're trying for Thursday late afternoon. Keeping my fingers crossed.
I talked to Master for most of the day, as usual. We reminisced a bit about some of our first conversations and our first time together. Things have changed so much since then, we have both grown so much.
I had to laugh when UPS made a delivery to the house. My dad asked me "what are you getting from the armed forces outfitters???" He thought it was for him until he saw my name on the package. I decided to stick close to the truth. I told him that a "friend" of mine makes whips out of para cord and that I had asked for one. I ordered the colors I wanted and my "friend" added a few to the order to save on shipping. Dad thought it was pretty cool... thought it would be fun to have a whip for the woods..mentioned that my brother has one of those survival bracelets. I thought I had been pretty clever... and then realized that I'm going to have to borrow one of Master's whips eventually..dad will probably ask to see it.
Master and I also talked a little bit about different local events. I told him that I would like to go to an event next year, either MTKF or Tryst. I asked him if he thought it would be improper for me to go to one along. He said "alone, yes. With a trusted friend, no". Which is pretty much what I meant. I wouldn't dream of going to an event without knowing that I'm meeting up with someone Master trusts. I'm definitely thinking about it. MTKF is sold out for February, and as far as I know the next one is in July and the next Tryst is in August again...so I have plenty of time to decide and find someone that Master trusts to let me tag along and hopefully not be a burden.
I was hoping to to go the WALK munch this weekend, but alas, I work. Maybe I'll kick it up a notch with my training while the kids are gone....we'll see.
Anyways... here's a question for you... A year ago, if you had looked into the future, would you have recognized yourself today?
I was on the phone with HP and my school for almost an hour.. of course the majority of the time was on hold. I guess we're trying for Thursday late afternoon. Keeping my fingers crossed.
I talked to Master for most of the day, as usual. We reminisced a bit about some of our first conversations and our first time together. Things have changed so much since then, we have both grown so much.
I had to laugh when UPS made a delivery to the house. My dad asked me "what are you getting from the armed forces outfitters???" He thought it was for him until he saw my name on the package. I decided to stick close to the truth. I told him that a "friend" of mine makes whips out of para cord and that I had asked for one. I ordered the colors I wanted and my "friend" added a few to the order to save on shipping. Dad thought it was pretty cool... thought it would be fun to have a whip for the woods..mentioned that my brother has one of those survival bracelets. I thought I had been pretty clever... and then realized that I'm going to have to borrow one of Master's whips eventually..dad will probably ask to see it.
Master and I also talked a little bit about different local events. I told him that I would like to go to an event next year, either MTKF or Tryst. I asked him if he thought it would be improper for me to go to one along. He said "alone, yes. With a trusted friend, no". Which is pretty much what I meant. I wouldn't dream of going to an event without knowing that I'm meeting up with someone Master trusts. I'm definitely thinking about it. MTKF is sold out for February, and as far as I know the next one is in July and the next Tryst is in August again...so I have plenty of time to decide and find someone that Master trusts to let me tag along and hopefully not be a burden.
I was hoping to to go the WALK munch this weekend, but alas, I work. Maybe I'll kick it up a notch with my training while the kids are gone....we'll see.
Anyways... here's a question for you... A year ago, if you had looked into the future, would you have recognized yourself today?
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Saturday's Munch and Such
After finishing some homework on Saturday I went out of town for a munch. I had spoken with a couple of good friends before hand about meeting them for lunch so I went early. I was pretty excited, about both the lunch and a couple of new toys that I was going to be getting. I had been working with someone that makes objects out of silicone and I was going to be getting the final product.
Master helped me to decide what to wear. I went in a short, snug skirt with a reddish shirt with a very deep cowl and a blue tank top underneath. After meeting the M/s couple I was meeting we walked a couple of blocks to the Middle Eastern restaurant. I didn't expect DM to pay for my lunch after all, I invited them, but I wasn't surprised by it either. He decided he wanted to sit in the lounge area on the pillows, and asked me if I could sit without flashing anyone. That made me blush a bit..but I was able to sit without giving anyone there a peek. lol
We talked about a few things lifestyle, a few things not, it's always great conversation with them. I love how they are around each other. I told them about my new toys that I would be getting at the munch. Ksst mentioned that she saw the pic the maker had posted of them. I had made a comment on the pic saying I should hang mistletoe on it and then mentioned to DM and Ksst that Master had said the next time we go for group therapy with them that I could hang mistletoe from it. They seemed to like the idea. lol
We were a bit late getting to the munch, but that was ok, I don't think anyone wanted to cut lunch short. The munch this month was electrical play. One of the members brought a violet wand with them. Master got one a while ago, but it isn't as powerful (yay!). I like ours, various glass attachments, a bit stingy without feeling too...electrical.
As soon as I got to the top of the stairs I was greeted and hugged tightly by the person I've been collaborating with for the custom mini dildos. He showed them to me, I found out that his wife was quite jealous and wanted one for herself. Unfortunately for her I liked them too much to give one up.
(The order was originally for just one, and after finding out that it would probably fit in my butt, Master decided that I would need a second).
I sent Master a picture right away and set them aside when the munch started. I was texting Master a bit during the munch, the one that made the toys was saying they would be fun to hang an Xmas ornament from it. I told him as well that T had a few other ideas as well. Master asked me what they were, and I told him "Ummm, I forgot"(joking). He called me out for lying and said that he didn't like liars. He told me that at that moment I was to find an excuse to go down to the bathroom and put one of the toys in my pussy.
My stomach dropped. I felt very... put in my place and very aroused at the same time.
How was I going to get one and take it downstairs without someone noticing? I was on the other side of the room and the toys were out in the open on my jacket. I asked someone where the bathroom was and tried to casually put my sunglasses down on my jacket and pick up one of the toys without it being obvious.
Coming up the stairs I was very aware of the new toy. The length makes it very noticeable to have inside me. It felt a little bit like it might work its way out eventually, which just made me clench around it even more. It would be mortifying enough if someone realized one of the toys were gone... it would be even worse if the one I was using fell out!!!
So there I was... for the second half of the munch, standing there with a mini dildo in my pussy, clenching around it even though I was pretty sure it wouldn't come out. Part of me wanted Master to order me to tell someone, DM and Ksst maybe since we both know them well and are close friends. The other part of me was wondering if I was nuts!
I made it through the rest of the munch without incident, stood outside to waiting for DM and Ksst to come down so I could make sure to give them hugs and made my way home.
Master helped me to decide what to wear. I went in a short, snug skirt with a reddish shirt with a very deep cowl and a blue tank top underneath. After meeting the M/s couple I was meeting we walked a couple of blocks to the Middle Eastern restaurant. I didn't expect DM to pay for my lunch after all, I invited them, but I wasn't surprised by it either. He decided he wanted to sit in the lounge area on the pillows, and asked me if I could sit without flashing anyone. That made me blush a bit..but I was able to sit without giving anyone there a peek. lol
We talked about a few things lifestyle, a few things not, it's always great conversation with them. I love how they are around each other. I told them about my new toys that I would be getting at the munch. Ksst mentioned that she saw the pic the maker had posted of them. I had made a comment on the pic saying I should hang mistletoe on it and then mentioned to DM and Ksst that Master had said the next time we go for group therapy with them that I could hang mistletoe from it. They seemed to like the idea. lol
We were a bit late getting to the munch, but that was ok, I don't think anyone wanted to cut lunch short. The munch this month was electrical play. One of the members brought a violet wand with them. Master got one a while ago, but it isn't as powerful (yay!). I like ours, various glass attachments, a bit stingy without feeling too...electrical.
As soon as I got to the top of the stairs I was greeted and hugged tightly by the person I've been collaborating with for the custom mini dildos. He showed them to me, I found out that his wife was quite jealous and wanted one for herself. Unfortunately for her I liked them too much to give one up.
(The order was originally for just one, and after finding out that it would probably fit in my butt, Master decided that I would need a second).
I sent Master a picture right away and set them aside when the munch started. I was texting Master a bit during the munch, the one that made the toys was saying they would be fun to hang an Xmas ornament from it. I told him as well that T had a few other ideas as well. Master asked me what they were, and I told him "Ummm, I forgot"(joking). He called me out for lying and said that he didn't like liars. He told me that at that moment I was to find an excuse to go down to the bathroom and put one of the toys in my pussy.
My stomach dropped. I felt very... put in my place and very aroused at the same time.
How was I going to get one and take it downstairs without someone noticing? I was on the other side of the room and the toys were out in the open on my jacket. I asked someone where the bathroom was and tried to casually put my sunglasses down on my jacket and pick up one of the toys without it being obvious.
Coming up the stairs I was very aware of the new toy. The length makes it very noticeable to have inside me. It felt a little bit like it might work its way out eventually, which just made me clench around it even more. It would be mortifying enough if someone realized one of the toys were gone... it would be even worse if the one I was using fell out!!!
So there I was... for the second half of the munch, standing there with a mini dildo in my pussy, clenching around it even though I was pretty sure it wouldn't come out. Part of me wanted Master to order me to tell someone, DM and Ksst maybe since we both know them well and are close friends. The other part of me was wondering if I was nuts!
I made it through the rest of the munch without incident, stood outside to waiting for DM and Ksst to come down so I could make sure to give them hugs and made my way home.
Training continues..
So I haven't been able to use the recording that Master gave me as often as I would like. I use it every time.. just don't get the opportunity to...play...very often.
I feel like it's working well, the other night, just after I had played it, maybe 3 seconds later I accidently pressed the "play" button again and heard the command. Since it was so soon I was still orgasming, but when I heard the command again, it definately got stronger again. I feel like there is a link that is being established, but I'm reluctant to try the command on its own yet.
I feel like it's working well, the other night, just after I had played it, maybe 3 seconds later I accidently pressed the "play" button again and heard the command. Since it was so soon I was still orgasming, but when I heard the command again, it definately got stronger again. I feel like there is a link that is being established, but I'm reluctant to try the command on its own yet.
Still no laptop...
I think HP has pissed me off to the point that I'm just going to use the laptop until the motherboard fries so that way they are forced to give me a new one. After what that tech said... they deserve it.
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